reality check for me today...i wont get a bmw anytime soon.

today=
mylan for lunch
ridgmar to shop...with no AC
worked out for one hour WHOOPY

So today I finally got to talk to Chung and hes been avoiding me every time I talk about our future [only because he is busy for the BAR]..Since this is the time where we have to make adjustments. Its really hard to even have a visual of what our future is like because Chung is so unstable. We just dont know what is out in the world for us.
Our relationship was always rough but it was easy for me because Chung makes it easy for me. and this is why I love him so much. And for the first time in 3 year, he finally showed that he dont know how to deal with this. We don't have a place to stay in August, no definite job, no money, and SHIT load of loans to pay off. We set our standard too high and now we cant even reach it. That two story house, bmw, putting Kayla in private school, and all those investment chung wanted.

I believe we can make it, I always did... but I am just worried for Chung because I know he has alot of chips on his shoulder.
The road always seem so rough. but as long as you are willing to drive through it..eventually you will get to your destination. In a couple years...I hope I can come back to this blog and realize..."hey we made it again...."

Dude, I hate to admit, but i really think god is helping us. Because seriously...I dont know how things got worked out the way it did...but it keeps getting better.


CONVERSATION OF THE DAY.

adorkable teenuh: actually
adorkable teenuh: it seems like ot me
adorkable teenuh: guys hit on girls
adorkable teenuh: that they know for sure they can get
adorkable teenuh: and the fobby ugly ones are actualy the ones that hit on the hot girls
adorkable teenuh: ahha
carlin hates u: omg
carlin hates u: that is so true
carlin hates u: no wonder i keep getting hit on my fobs
carlin hates u: hahahsdfklfjdof
adorkable teenuh: haha
adorkable teenuh: yes tahts how we know we're hot!!
adorkable teenuh: lets just put it that way!
adorkable teenuh: ahah

Darn, I ate too much and didn't work out today.

So today we finally hung out with Ann Lac!! Tina, Ann, and I went to eat lunch at THAI CHILI in Southlake...please do not make me go there again. I should of been firm with BELKNAP THAI because I ruined the only few chance I get to go out to eat.
After lunch, we went shopping...my favorite. I didn't realize there were so many shops I like there..so now thats going to be one of my favorite place to hit....It will be nice to take Kayla on walks too.

We went home around 4ish? and I didnt really feel satisfy with what I got at the square today...So I went to Northeast Mall regardless it was raining cats and dogs. I finally found the RED SHOES that I always wanted but that is so hard to fucking find. Thanks to DSW.

Ok, I feel like Ive been having fun this whole damn summer but why the hell is my blog so boring?

Things I want to do this summer

Osaka- Depending on timing...I have to starve myself for 3 days before I hit a buffet.
Bistro B- Tina still havent tried it!!
Karaoke at Ktown- without Ron.
BAR {A}
Kenchi Lounge- I probably wanna go here to celebrate Chung coming back.
WORKOUT- ACCOMPLISHED
Belly dance
Yoga
Swimming
Volleyball

Lean Cuisine...totally satisfied

111 lbs. I am the happiest girl ever. Thanks to LC and fitness 2k. Well today I kind of cheated...I ate smoked pigs hock. I TOOK ONE BITE but I feel so guilty right now.

Kayla called me "mamee" and "mimi" today. It was sooooo freaking cute.

I think I might have to name "Mikado" my number 1 sushi restaurant to go to. Not only that it is close..but they have yummy bento boxes and the price isnt too bad! I am not driving to Las Colinas again for sushi!! Well thats only if I dont move around that area in August.

So today Chung actually got pissed at me because I needed to find a "date" for 6flags. which I thought its weird because he lets me hit on guys at the club to get free drinks..but I cant ask a guy friend to go to six flags with me. Maybe hes jealous he cant be my date or something. Actually, Thats messed up because he got free tickets to the movies and I let him take a girl. But yea, after we argued for a while he finally remembered what he read from msn news...the girl that got her legs cut off on the batman ride. Great.....If he told me that earlier, there will be no arguing.

I am so excited we are going to CHUCK E CHEESE tommorow. I get to go on their salad bar..yipee.

Remember.........

To make sure I don't forget some of the interesting stuff that happened in our life, I decided to blog again. I am pretty sure yall will come back on here and read some of the memories we had sometimes later on in life. Since I haven't blogged for so long, I would have to rewrite everything that i remembered happened so correct me if I am wrong.

Summer 2007
Anh came clean on holding a grudge on Tina for the first time. She said she is coming out because shes been a bad friend but instead of telling us what she did wrong, she started with what Tina and Meryl did wrong. But to minimize tension, we decided not to confront her about anything. hehe we are so nice.

This summers had been so great for me. Kayla finally got to know her godmothers and she is actually really attached to Tina and Meryl. Ive been looking forward for that because she is my little stamp reject junior. Anh haven't been close to us this summer. I assume its because of Ron and her PCAT. Hopefully this will get better after she is done but I find her fucking rude this summer. Am I the only one that misses the old sweet Anh?

Its pretty sad because I dont really remember a time when all 4 of us are close. Its either Meryl is too busy for us..or Anh was. Tina and I are the only ones that stick around because we have nothing better to do hahaha.


All 3 of us went to get a membership at fitness 2k and its been working out pretty well. I am so proud of us. [note to self: I am 112.6 as of 6/23/07] My goal is 105. Man, I really had a slammin body back in the days but I didnt take advantage of it..now im stuck with MOMMY BODY.

I never missed Chung this much. I always told my friend I love this space I have with him. But that is only because we at least got to talk on the phone couple times a day. The BAR kept him so busy that I dont even get to talk to him for 5 minutes a day. Perhaps I do love him THAT much. We are like peanut butter jelly and a baseball bat.

As of today, I am officially done with partying. I really tried hard to get back in the scene but its not working. I cant even dance because I think about what my kid will think about me if I shake my ass like that haha. I am such a mother. And what is the point of partying if you cant get numbers? I think that was the only thing that kept me going...is the NUMBERS. They were like TROPHIES.

I guess there is a lesson behind every mistake. Because of what we went through in high school, it taught me who I should hang out with and who I should not.*hint* Honestly, if I want to roll gangster, I wouldnt of married Chung. I guess what I am trying to say is I married Chung to settle down and I know I can have a peaceful and successful life with him. I hang out with yall girls because we are pretty much dramafree now.... we grew out of it together. I love walking outside knowing nobody will come and jump/shoot me. I love walking by my "ex-hater" knowing I can just smile and wave but still hate them deep within. I love how I can go to showplace now and nobody will call me out. ISNT IT SO GREAT BEING DRAMAFREE? so yeah that means if I have to cut some people out of my life..i will.

Really, this is the summer we should not take for granted. Next year, everybody is graduating/moving and we will never know where we will end up. This might be the last summer we get to hang out and as tina would say.."CHILL". But yeah...isnt that depressing?