reality check for me today...i wont get a bmw anytime soon.

today=
mylan for lunch
ridgmar to shop...with no AC
worked out for one hour WHOOPY

So today I finally got to talk to Chung and hes been avoiding me every time I talk about our future [only because he is busy for the BAR]..Since this is the time where we have to make adjustments. Its really hard to even have a visual of what our future is like because Chung is so unstable. We just dont know what is out in the world for us.
Our relationship was always rough but it was easy for me because Chung makes it easy for me. and this is why I love him so much. And for the first time in 3 year, he finally showed that he dont know how to deal with this. We don't have a place to stay in August, no definite job, no money, and SHIT load of loans to pay off. We set our standard too high and now we cant even reach it. That two story house, bmw, putting Kayla in private school, and all those investment chung wanted.

I believe we can make it, I always did... but I am just worried for Chung because I know he has alot of chips on his shoulder.
The road always seem so rough. but as long as you are willing to drive through it..eventually you will get to your destination. In a couple years...I hope I can come back to this blog and realize..."hey we made it again...."

Dude, I hate to admit, but i really think god is helping us. Because seriously...I dont know how things got worked out the way it did...but it keeps getting better.


CONVERSATION OF THE DAY.

adorkable teenuh: actually
adorkable teenuh: it seems like ot me
adorkable teenuh: guys hit on girls
adorkable teenuh: that they know for sure they can get
adorkable teenuh: and the fobby ugly ones are actualy the ones that hit on the hot girls
adorkable teenuh: ahha
carlin hates u: omg
carlin hates u: that is so true
carlin hates u: no wonder i keep getting hit on my fobs
carlin hates u: hahahsdfklfjdof
adorkable teenuh: haha
adorkable teenuh: yes tahts how we know we're hot!!
adorkable teenuh: lets just put it that way!
adorkable teenuh: ahah